Dearest Mom,
It seems as though thoughts and time are continuous streams in my life. Time is a runaway train and I often wonder at missed opportunities, loves lost and found, and the strength of persistence. Persistence is continuing on, sadly watching all those missed opportunities pass by and hoping that in the end it will have been worth the sacrifice.
As for thoughts. I can best describe it as a television with the channel changer in the hands of an explorative 2-year old. Images flash by from the past, from the present, dreams and goals. Sometimes it is hard to focus anything at all except the book in front of me. But sometimes, a thought coalesces that is so overwhelming that even time stops and I experience the full breadth of emotion.
And that was this morning. I was parking and just had this most wonderful feeling of you. The admiration of your drive and persistence through life is a beaming example of what I admire most in the human spirit. More frequently, I am seeing people who simply give up wherever they are in life. They say things like, "That's fate," or, "God wills it." They fail to see that, if it's fate, then if you persist, you can overcome it. And if we believe in a loving God, then He never wants to see us fail. There may be challenges he places before us, but those challenges are meant to help us achieve our highest potential. They are not to place us in doldrum from which we can never escape. Those are choices we make for ourselves.
We have known each other for such a short time in the general scheme of time, but I feel as though I have witnessed your hardships in that stream of thoughts I spoke of. And I have watched as you gallantly pulled on your hip-waders and trudged through the muck that had been placed before you. And every time I have witnessed these scenes, I have only loved you more. You are the best to which the human spirit can aspire. And I just wanted to say that I hope that spirit continues to burn in me through whatever trials await me in life.
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